Confused Feelings

Completely alone. This feeling that I´ve experienced for such a long time by now. Headache… I think I know what I have to do… is focus on my professional career, keep walking, trying to get to know many people as much as I can, travel if it´s possible, smile, exercise, take cares of me be a good girl and maybe in the end deserve someone special in my life…

Why did I get so emotional today? If you look around, everybody has someone to count on… even you has someone, although you claim you´re alone, but the truth is you´re not on your own as I am. Arriving every single day and sleep alone at night. Wake up alone. Have dinner alone… See television alone, and no one to talk about your day. See? So… that´s is to be totally alone…

And guess what? Sometimes I like it… I got used to it… do what I want to do, anytime I want… eat whatever I want whenever I want… but when I see you, I feel how much I miss you, the thing is sometimes I forget how much I miss you… but when I realize how much I still love you… this loneliness and this depression really let me down… but I am a survival and in fact, I have a free spirit now… and by the way, I am not so sure that I want you all the time…, but I feel like I would like to have you sometimes… the companionship… just for sometimes, to share this mystery of life…